My new Journey day 1

Hello family and  friends,

   As I am writing my first real entry, I sit here thinking about the difficult issues in my past and how i can not move forward until I deal with those issues so they will quit creeping up on me as I move forward into my new journey.I know people say the past is the past let it go,move on, but I find that hard to do until I am on my knees in prayer before my heavenly father and ask him to show me what areas in  my past will hurt my future journey and which past memories will help me move forward with a smile and confidence  in knowing "hey I did a good job when i did that".or "Geez Did I just say or do that,What was I thinking"
   I Do need to let go and let God, but one of my biggest issues is that of rejection..I have been rejected by so many growing up due to health issues and even into adulthood, I have lost many "so called" friends because they could not accept me for who I am.I have allowed that in the past few years to build a wall of protection around me,withdrawing from many social events,and becoming sorta cold thus making it difficult to allow new friends to come into my life or develop closer friendships.But the wall must come tumbling down and the healing must begin.
  Though I have a long road ahead I will look forward with confidence.

Here is a song I would like to share:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFUHrXfuNU4

God has a plan and a purpose for my life and I am going to move forward with fulfilling His glory.

One thing I must make clear is that I am not perfect,I do mess up alot and My Heavenly Father forgives me and that is what is most important.but also hope that you,my family and friends can forgive me as well.

May you all be blessed and know that if I mess up and there is a misunderstanding .Please come to me so we can talk about it and work it out..If you are really my friend ...You won't walk away because of a misunderstanding.Your friendship means more to me than you will ever know and I do value your friendship.

Have a wonderful night my dear sweet family & friends.

In Him,
Amy