Just briefly I went back to Dr.Smith today and found out alot, actually too much to remember.I knew there was alot going on with my health but didn't realize it was this much,very overwhelming! He chose to accept me as a patient and I start therapy this Wed.I can't go into much detail right now, but I pray that this helps and that there will be major improvement in 6-9 months. The cost is extensive and our insurance won't cover it at all.so unfortunately more debt.but I pray that God will provide the funds so we can go ahead and pay it very soon so we won't have to pay tons of interest .I know God isn't a big fan of debt but this is what I have been longing for.
I have been longing for answers to a health condition that I have had since 9 months of age and other stuff that has happened the past few years.I cannot continue on the way it is right now, the pain is intense most of the time and I am constantly drained,and dealing with stomach problems.this combined with the daily stress and disappointment that I cannot be the mom God has called me to be or the wife that God has called me to be.The inability to keep up with housework is a struggle I battle daily i want a clean spotless house but I just can't do much right now and can't afford a maid.I have had enough I can't live this way anymore so I am willing to do whatever it takes and pay the cost .I just pray that my family and friends can support me in this decision to proceed with this therapy and lifestyle changes. If it all goes as the Dr,says I will be a changed person and I will feel so much better.There are those that are skeptical but I just hope I can prove to them that my new life awaits very soon.It will be a long Journey but I pray that I will come through this a whole new person with no more pain and tons of energy,peace,joy,.and a spotless house :)
Everybody have an awesome week and Thank you for your prayers
<3 ya'll
Amy
Monday, February 28, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
My new Journey day 1
Hello family and friends,
As I am writing my first real entry, I sit here thinking about the difficult issues in my past and how i can not move forward until I deal with those issues so they will quit creeping up on me as I move forward into my new journey.I know people say the past is the past let it go,move on, but I find that hard to do until I am on my knees in prayer before my heavenly father and ask him to show me what areas in my past will hurt my future journey and which past memories will help me move forward with a smile and confidence in knowing "hey I did a good job when i did that".or "Geez Did I just say or do that,What was I thinking"
I Do need to let go and let God, but one of my biggest issues is that of rejection..I have been rejected by so many growing up due to health issues and even into adulthood, I have lost many "so called" friends because they could not accept me for who I am.I have allowed that in the past few years to build a wall of protection around me,withdrawing from many social events,and becoming sorta cold thus making it difficult to allow new friends to come into my life or develop closer friendships.But the wall must come tumbling down and the healing must begin.
Though I have a long road ahead I will look forward with confidence.
Here is a song I would like to share:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFUHrXfuNU4
God has a plan and a purpose for my life and I am going to move forward with fulfilling His glory.
One thing I must make clear is that I am not perfect,I do mess up alot and My Heavenly Father forgives me and that is what is most important.but also hope that you,my family and friends can forgive me as well.
May you all be blessed and know that if I mess up and there is a misunderstanding .Please come to me so we can talk about it and work it out..If you are really my friend ...You won't walk away because of a misunderstanding.Your friendship means more to me than you will ever know and I do value your friendship.
Have a wonderful night my dear sweet family & friends.
In Him,
Amy
As I am writing my first real entry, I sit here thinking about the difficult issues in my past and how i can not move forward until I deal with those issues so they will quit creeping up on me as I move forward into my new journey.I know people say the past is the past let it go,move on, but I find that hard to do until I am on my knees in prayer before my heavenly father and ask him to show me what areas in my past will hurt my future journey and which past memories will help me move forward with a smile and confidence in knowing "hey I did a good job when i did that".or "Geez Did I just say or do that,What was I thinking"
I Do need to let go and let God, but one of my biggest issues is that of rejection..I have been rejected by so many growing up due to health issues and even into adulthood, I have lost many "so called" friends because they could not accept me for who I am.I have allowed that in the past few years to build a wall of protection around me,withdrawing from many social events,and becoming sorta cold thus making it difficult to allow new friends to come into my life or develop closer friendships.But the wall must come tumbling down and the healing must begin.
Though I have a long road ahead I will look forward with confidence.
Here is a song I would like to share:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFUHrXfuNU4
God has a plan and a purpose for my life and I am going to move forward with fulfilling His glory.
One thing I must make clear is that I am not perfect,I do mess up alot and My Heavenly Father forgives me and that is what is most important.but also hope that you,my family and friends can forgive me as well.
May you all be blessed and know that if I mess up and there is a misunderstanding .Please come to me so we can talk about it and work it out..If you are really my friend ...You won't walk away because of a misunderstanding.Your friendship means more to me than you will ever know and I do value your friendship.
Have a wonderful night my dear sweet family & friends.
In Him,
Amy
Friday, February 11, 2011
Testing it.
Good Evening friends,
This 1st blog will be very brief as I just want to check it out and give it a test run.I am about to move forward in a new journey and would like for you all to follow me.As I have time to sit and think about what to write and what the Lord places on my heart to share..I will post...However I must sign off for now and will write again soon.
Many Blessings,
Amy
This 1st blog will be very brief as I just want to check it out and give it a test run.I am about to move forward in a new journey and would like for you all to follow me.As I have time to sit and think about what to write and what the Lord places on my heart to share..I will post...However I must sign off for now and will write again soon.
Many Blessings,
Amy
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